Thursday, April 7, 2011

Mid-Life Crisis

I'm in the middle of a mid-life crisis.

Why so young, you might ask? The answer to that is, I'm at the perfect age to have it because how many people do you guys know who lived to be 100?

I am torn between leaving or staying. If I leave, I will have to start from scratch and rebuild my rep again. If I stay, I might lose one big opportunity that other people would kill for.

I've soul-searched, soul-searched and soul-searched some more but I'm still at an impasse. I tried to think about what's more important to me but it's a total deadlock. It seems to me that I'd be damned if I do but damned if I don't.

Do you get that feeling? I do---a lot.

I hate that I'm so afflicted with indecision. Seriously! I think I've already mentioned previously that I am unable to make decisions. Every time I decide on something, I feel it in my bones that I should have made a different one. This has put me in a lot of fun situations in the past---well, maybe not fun but definitely interesting.

This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to decide on and it scares me. My decision will defintely change my life and change its whole course. That's why it's so hard to make up my mind right now.

What to do?